Finding Inspiration –

As I mentioned last week, in search of ideas I started reading through my travel diary.

What I found was my most inspiring self.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not calling myself an inspiration. I’m by no means someone to give out life advice, nor would I think of myself as wise. I’m just a regular guy from Nottingham, England.

However, on my journey I have wrote things down in moments of clarity that I haven’t always stuck to. Illuminating things that may help during dark times. So what I wanted to do this week for the benefit of myself (and hopefully anyone that this resonates with) is to share some excerpts from my travel diary that serve as healthy reminders of how to find my best self.

This is a mixture of my own words and things I’ve read in books that spoke to me. Some of it is completely out there (and will sound very hippie to some) so I will try to bring it down to Earth a little where necessary in what it means to me.

[Edit: I’m half way through writing quotes and I’m starting to feel extremely exposed. I should point out I never intended to share any of these things. They were just for me and I wrote them as such. But even though I’m a nobody, there have been people that have confided in me following moments that I have put myself out there. My most vulnerable posts are the ones that make others feel less alone. Those people are the ones that inspire me the most.]

Quotes from My Travel Diary

1. I have discovered communication is so important for a positive state of mind. Positive affirmations, talking to someone about your feelings, communicating with the universe through meditation. So important.

I get that affirmations and meditation may sound out there. Even for my non-traveller personality it can seem daunting. But at the end of the day it’s just communication. How you communicate with yourself, your loved ones, strangers, God, the universe, your pets. Whatever! Communication, even in the form of a diary is a great way to release and share your thoughts. It’s importance should never be overlooked.

2. I often feel moments of complete awe for the life I’m living and the places I find myself. I don’t take any of it for granted and recognise but don’t dwell on the fact that the ups won’t last forever and soon I will have to find love in the hurt, heart break and unhappiness – Bring on the challenge.

This echoes what I spoke about in the mental health blog. The highs are high and you should appreciate every second of it, but the only way to stay high is to overcome your lows and face them directly.

3. I used to feel so strange with my mood swings. Sometimes wanting social interaction and sometimes wanting to run from it. I feel more comfortable and accepting of my thoughts and feelings and holding no judgements in the times that I don’t feel like talking or being social. It’s ok, and it’s me and it’s beautiful.

‘Mood swings’ is perhaps a mischaracterisation but I didn’t want to change the excerpt. I’m a social introvert (some might say) and sometimes I want to be alone and recharge, sometimes I’ll want to demand everyone’s attention. Society can have a tenancy to glorify some social aspects above others and it was deeply ingrained in me to pass judgement on my self because of this. It’s ok to take time for yourself. To skip a party or lunch date because you’re not in the right head space. It took me a while to allow myself that.

4. You can easily forget your personality if you don’t exercise it.

To put this in context it was following “I’ve been hiding – focusing on myself and self love trying to take good from the bad. There are no mistakes so I’m thankful for everything and this trip was a blessing. It was nice to be around people and be social again.” Taking away all the flowery talk, what I’m saying is ‘I’ve been staying inside, facing my demons and trying to build myself back up’. It was following a tough time and this quote serves as a reminder of what I was. To an extent what I am, or can be when I remove myself from social interaction (external and internal).

5. We never know what’s around the corner. Sometimes it seems nice to have stability and routine and others I just want to take off and travel, [to] keep each day as a new adventure. I guess there will be time for routine when I’m older so [I will] just make the most of my lifestyle for the time being. [I will] Try to love the world and everyone in it, myself included.

Say no more fam!

6. I’m often doubting myself, money, my love life etc. so it’s refreshing for the universe to send me a message just to let me know everything is as it should be. I don’t know when my next journey will be – but I know it will be at the right time. Just when I need it.

I don’t know if anyone else feels like this but life for me sometimes is like a computer game. I go off mission, I get a little lost. No longer knowing if I’m still on track or if I’m just breaking boxes waiting to find a mushroom inside (…). Then I get to a check point or save spot where I can just feel that I’m back on track. It takes a lot to truly believe that things will work out during times of uncertainty. When I’m wading through life, not knowing what’s coming next I just have to trust fall into the next level whether I hit a check point or not.

7. So thankful for these trips and I think I need to start bringing gratitude to the forefront more.

Over the past few years I have experimented with starting each day by setting my intention. Thanking [insert God/Universe/Person] for all the great things that I have or that are yet to come and affirming how great the day will be. I’ve also experimented with ending each day with 3 things I’m thankful for. Our mind is trainable and I would recommend giving this a try at some points, just to see if it sets you on a more positive path.

8. Harness the light, embrace the love. Take your holiday mentality home with you.

This is my enigma. My incomplete quest. My end of game boss. I have moments of clarity, of love, of oneness. But I haven’t been able to maintain it long term. I still find myself getting wrapped up in every day dramas (self image, gossip, celebrity etc.) that I know don’t serve me. So this quote is a reminder to keep going. Keep striving. And with each step, to make progress.

That feels like a good conclusion to end this weeks blog.

For those wanting a little bit more there’s also some quotes from books that I’ve written down as I’ve been travelling. You can find them below.

I’m always keen to hear people’s feedback and trying to give what I think people are saying they want. It won’t all be as deep and exposing as this. Sometimes I want to just visit a place and tell you some nice things I did there, but when I do get to give you a more intimate part of myself it’s great to get your feedback. You can hit me up on Instagram, Facebook, Email or just by screaming my name on any high street.

Catch you next week πŸ™‚

Love, Kallum <3

Quotes from Books (That I noted in my Travel Diary)

I’ll leave these open to interpretation πŸ™‚

The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore not to find out who you are, seek to determine who you want to be.

Β – Conversations with God by Neale Donald

We need solitude in order to befriend the spirit. People are afraid of being alone because they equate it with loneliness. In our society, especially, we seem to feel that if we are alone, then we are not alive. We are almost ashamed of it. But solitude is necessary. In order to know who you are, you need to spend some time with yourself.

– Deepak Chopra – How to Live in a World of Infinite Possibilities by Leon Nacson

I really believe once you’re comfortable with the turbulence within you, that’s the beginning of the source of creativity

– Deepak Chopra – How to Live in a World of Infinite Possibilities by Leon Nacson

This fear based love reality dominates your experience of love, indeed actually creates it. For not only do you see yourself receiving love which is conditional, you also watch yourself giving it in the same way. And even while you withhold and retreat and set your conditions, a part of you knows this is not what love really is. Still you seem powerless to change the way you dispense it. You’ve learned the hard way, you tell yourself, and you’ll be damned if you’re going to leave yourself vulnerable again. Yet the truth is, you’ll be damned if you don’t.

– Conversations with God by Neale Donald